I love birds sitting on wires. Now I’m sitting here thinking, ‘Why would I start my first blog post with a Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy type of sentence?’ But it’s true! I love birds sitting on a wire! And this picture describes how I’ve been feeling lately: being still and in rapid motion at the same time.
I’ve always looked at birds sitting on a wire with anticipation and excitement. At any moment they can take off or a friend can land on the same wire and sit with them. They are on the verge of flying. It’s so simple, I know. But to me, at least right now, it means so much. Looking back at my most favorite moments in life, the common thread is appreciating the temporary. Never missing a moment to acknowledge that life changes and there are times when you need to sit on a wire and other times when you hold your breath and try those wings out.
For a long time now, I’ve felt like I’ve been on the edge of something really big. At times that’s felt like just being on edge. Or I’ve felt like I was on the ridge of a dark canyon. Because of that and for lots of other reasons, I decided to quit my job, pack up, and move to New York City. I felt that it was time for me to go after a goal that I’ve had for the last decade but I’ve always made excuses and not allowed it to happen. 
I struggled for a long time making the decision to quit. My job had become unbearable and I had crumbled down to a person I  didn’t really recognize anymore. I wavered on so many thoughts: being irresponsible, wanting to move to a city where I felt more of my creative and inspired self was on the surface, choosing to be unemployed in this economy, knowing that I’ve always landed on my feet when I trusted myself, figuring out how to stay afloat, taking advantage of the time and space that I had, disappointing my parents, and, of course, making a mistake. While sorting through all those thoughts, I struggled to see a clear path. Instead, it seemed like the path was unfolding for me and once I took the blinders off, I was already half way down and about to take the leap. Once I made the decision an incredible weight was lifted. It was the first time in over a year where I felt like I was taking care of myself. It felt amazing. I felt revived.
I am still coming to terms with making such a big decision and the worry and fear that has flooded my thoughts. But I’m trying to focus on the bigger picture. I stole this quote from one of my best friends’ blog when she quit her job, I love it:

“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs.  Ask yourself what makes you  come alive and then go do that.  Because what the world needs is people  who have come alive.”                                                                            –Howard Thurman

I am excited about this chapter in my life. I don’t know how it’s all going to play out but the decision to move forward is a great beginning. Ready. Set. Go: March 17th, one way ticket to NYC!

I love birds sitting on wires. Now I’m sitting here thinking, ‘Why would I start my first blog post with a Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy type of sentence?’ But it’s true! I love birds sitting on a wire! And this picture describes how I’ve been feeling lately: being still and in rapid motion at the same time.

I’ve always looked at birds sitting on a wire with anticipation and excitement. At any moment they can take off or a friend can land on the same wire and sit with them. They are on the verge of flying. It’s so simple, I know. But to me, at least right now, it means so much. Looking back at my most favorite moments in life, the common thread is appreciating the temporary. Never missing a moment to acknowledge that life changes and there are times when you need to sit on a wire and other times when you hold your breath and try those wings out.

For a long time now, I’ve felt like I’ve been on the edge of something really big. At times that’s felt like just being on edge. Or I’ve felt like I was on the ridge of a dark canyon. Because of that and for lots of other reasons, I decided to quit my job, pack up, and move to New York City. I felt that it was time for me to go after a goal that I’ve had for the last decade but I’ve always made excuses and not allowed it to happen. 

I struggled for a long time making the decision to quit. My job had become unbearable and I had crumbled down to a person I didn’t really recognize anymore. I wavered on so many thoughts: being irresponsible, wanting to move to a city where I felt more of my creative and inspired self was on the surface, choosing to be unemployed in this economy, knowing that I’ve always landed on my feet when I trusted myself, figuring out how to stay afloat, taking advantage of the time and space that I had, disappointing my parents, and, of course, making a mistake. While sorting through all those thoughts, I struggled to see a clear path. Instead, it seemed like the path was unfolding for me and once I took the blinders off, I was already half way down and about to take the leap. Once I made the decision an incredible weight was lifted. It was the first time in over a year where I felt like I was taking care of myself. It felt amazing. I felt revived.

I am still coming to terms with making such a big decision and the worry and fear that has flooded my thoughts. But I’m trying to focus on the bigger picture. I stole this quote from one of my best friends’ blog when she quit her job, I love it:

“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs.  Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that.  Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” 
                                                                         –Howard Thurman

I am excited about this chapter in my life. I don’t know how it’s all going to play out but the decision to move forward is a great beginning. Ready. Set. Go: March 17th, one way ticket to NYC!

 
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